The Ultimate War at VI

It was the week that the lads and I was looking forward to..

The VI competition..

We've been preparing for the tournament since the start of the year and Saturday training was always complusary to everyone. We've been training and placing all our efforts in seeking our weak points and trying to overcome it as well as identifiying the most capable solutions to the problems. Despite the interruptions like extra school-day, Cuccuriculum activities, or any other things which makes us involve in school, we still managed to train as hard as well as enjoy ourselves during the process.

I told to the team earlier that if we would be drawn into a match against a team, i was hoping to get either VI, Dato Lokman or MBS as the opponents. It was clear that i had a vision and I wanted to achieve what ever was on my mind.

When we got the invitation form from VI through Choon Liong, he just placed the names he thought would be appropriate and my mistake was letting him to do so without me actually consulting the list of players that would actually be playing. And so the players that were named are as follows.

Eko Juniardi
Hafiz Wahidduzzaman
Chan Choon Liong
Fong Kheng Wai
Ku Wei Xiong
Ho Kar Fei
Mogan Kalimuthu
Lee Sin Ken
Looi Kah Shien
Loh Win Sung
Calvin Yong
Saw Xian Ling
Nazim Amin
Remon Melchizedek
Aliff Hakim

The problem here was Aliff couldn't make it due to a relative function he had to attend and the other problem was there were too many defenders and less attackers. We had to make or better said 'force' defenders to play in midfield areas. We had to suddenly depend on the players that we had and no others. Luckily Acap (Asraff) was still around, so we brought him in to balance up the tactical formations.

Well, Naz, Loh, Eko, Fiz, Acap and I met up on the at Rejababe at 8pm and from there we went to school to see get Calvin. We all took the bus to Pudu, inwhere Looi will meet us a Dynamic Bookstore. Oh yea, by the way today was the first time Nazim travelled on a Public Bus!! So highlight this day please, its very important that everyone knows whats happening. Well, im not so suprised by this cause Isfahan and Kheng Wai's first time on Public Buses was with me as well. Not to say i forced them to take it but I wanted them to experience how it felt like.

Personally, i would rather take the bus than to ask my parents to send me somewhere or to be carpooled by someone. Well not that i wanna cover macho say i cool or stuff, but rather give my parents a break. I mean i don't want to like force my parents to send me somewhere, why burden them? Well for those who still car pool or ask their parents to drive them around, I understand (Theft cases).

EH, off topic. Now, that we stopped infront of the Times Square and near Penjara Pudu, we walked till VI. Naz said he really enjoyed walking, he liked the adventure ^^. Yea so did I. We were listening to Hitz FM radio station on our players and they interviewed one of the DJ on how he spend his holiday. He replied by saying he was eaten by a shark o.O"

Well, VI wasn't really far and I remembered we all steped in with our RIGHT FOOT, kinda the indian tradition thingy. So we didn't waste anytime and we did warm ups. Now that all the members were present, we played a small training match as well as some tactical training. By the time all our training was done, one of the referees called us.

The game was bout to start and believe me, it was a time of pure pressure for us. When it started, our main plan was to hit VI on the break, but it seemed that the opponents were just too strong. They came from every corner and well we kinda pushed them off. We tried so hard not to allow them to have a opening. We were too busy defending that we didn't really attack at all. VI finally netted one in from a long distance shot. This was really disturbing for the rest of the team.

Well, we did attack 3 times in the first half. Nazim took a shot which deflected off the lefthand post, I attacked from the right wing and tried to shoot but the defender closed me down and I attacked again from the right wing but this time the keeper saved my shot. Though we were trying very hard to attack, the VI defenders was just too fast to close us down. The score line was 1-0 at half time.

Everyone was 'dying' during half time, exhausted, painful, stressed out and more exhausted. We just can't do anything but continue playing the way we played and hoped that we could make a comeback. Well, one of our biggest weakness though was that the all of us depended so much on Saw Xian Ling that when he got injured during the second half period, we just couldn't play properly. 2 more goals went in for VI from long range shots. VI managed to find our weak point; Long Range affords. We failed to close them down in time that when the shots went in, it went straight into the goal.

We just couldn't continue. The faces on the lads were really dissapointing. They knew what was upon them.

Saw Xian Ling out, We were losing to 3-0, We only managed to hit 3 shots so far, We had several of our players really exhausted.

But there was one moment of magic for us. We hit VI on the counter attack. Acap played the ball to me from the midfield area and it was a one-on-two situation. I managed to scoop the ball past the first defender and went up against the second defender. My only option left was the only thing i'm good at, run. I used my pace against the second defender and fought my way to the penalty area. I heard Loh screamin "SHOOT IT REMON" and being in a tight angle i just took a shot from the right side of the goal and SCORED!. 3-1. Well, after the shot i had a short term cram.

I didn't want to let my team down. This proved that theres still a chance to actually score. It wasn't impossible, all we needed was faith and a barrel of 100 PLUS for everyone. We played so well, but everytime we tried harder, our stamina just decreased. All we could was just maintain our game play cause if we do attack, VI can easily catch us in the counter attack. Besides, VI wasn't gonna allow us to get through them again.

The game grew intense and eventually VI scored again. 4-1 the score line and I asked the referee about the time. He told me there was 5 minutes left. Knowing that it was imposible for us to match such a "well prepared" VI, i told the lads to stop trying too hard. Just relax and avoid injuries. VI scored again and we time was up. For some reason the Referee didn't blow the whistle and again VI scored. I was like Wad?? 6-1 the score line.

Yea, Team Hawk was trashed by the best team in Kuala Lumpur. After the final whistle, i took a look at the lads on one side of the field. I went up to everyone of my players and congratulated and thank them for their hard work and achievement. I wasn't really in the mood to talk to the players as I was personally disappointed with myself for letting the whole team down. My speed, my stamina, all i depended on failed me on the day of the tournament. I went to a side and didn't want to be disturbed.

For all i know, I am proud of the guys, No, Im proud of my team. Team Hawk. Everyone of them didn't gave up till the final whistle, especially the hardworking defenders. I have never been so proud of anything more then this. This has been one of the most, wait, THE MOST (it topped the list) tiring event of my life. I never felt so exhausted in my life. It felt like dying. Worst then any CrossCountry race i ever took part in.

And after some time, i realize that i couldn't run like how i used to after that bitter defeat.

Wisdom Tooth or just a pain in the "toot"

Yea.. its been going on and on and on! It really hurts!

I got up one morning realising theres a tiny tooth growing on the back of my other teeths. It was popping out from the gums. yea try imagining it. It really hurts and i have no idea why did it had to happen at a time like this. Dah la its holidays, time to relax and get all sorts of problems away from me for a while then this thing pulak.

Its been quite a disturbing few days due to that instant and continuous pain on the left part of my jaw. I almost feel like just tearing it out. But hey, i gotta be patience so i try so much not to talk and move my mouth.

The only time i feel better is only after i awake from my sleep. The pain keeps occuring during the times i try eating, talking, and well it just hurts so bad la. I'm not whinnning about a stupid ache on the back of my teeth but seriously it does so badly hurts.

Well, i decided to tell my mom about having a painful toothache and for some reason i was told to guggle with salt and put that spice thingy on my tooth there.

But obviously it was only temporary so i couldn't really feel the pain but placing that spice thing on my tooth every single day, wasseh my mouth later damn bitter.

One more thing i keep hearing from my family members is that i'm growing a wisdom tooth, something that only occurs during thre age of 21 or so.. Hmmmm.. what does this means?? hmmmm... Well for one thing i know, it really hurts and i cant enjoy my meals, and i can't even talk properly now.

Dah la i keep mumbling everytime, now things gets even worse.

I just hope this toothache gets better sooner.

A day on my phone..

Kinda odd kan?

Well, the title might mean nothing to the reader or anyone else but it sure does means alot to me. Well, remembering what happened yesterday i just decided to call KF to find out how was she doing..

Memang i was in a state of shock la, i was really shaken by the news, kinda got me worried. I needed, so badly, to know if she was ok so i decided to call her in the afternoon. Well, first i try takdapat. I also blurblur try again la. Then dapat, she pick up the call and i was like hello.. But it was quite busy in the background i couldn't hear what she was saying. I asked her bout the incident and she said it was nothing and said she will call me back.

I also ok la. Then i waited for a while, i thought to myself.. Oh yea Remon, you did it again.. Now you made a total fool out of yourself. "At this time, i dunno what was happening la" My crazy mind was telling me she wasn't interest to listen to me and hence i am a complete fool for calling her..

But i didn't care less la.. I only wanted to know how she is feeling thats it.. At times like this, we gotta set our sides about our differences. Thats what i think was the proper thing to do. Besides, only I can understand the situation i was in.

when i received a call back from Her, she sounded fine. Then i asked her bout the voice thingy and i got to understand what happened. I actually felt much relieved and better when she told me that everything is getting better. I'm just happy that she is fine.

Whats even better was that 4 minutes was just something special. Not only that i got to know what happen, what was better is that I finally spoke to her after a long time. It was really nice to chat with her. And for the time being i only wanna wish the best for her.

Thanks alot Couz..

Something We Should Learn about Life..

The Sacrament of Confirmation

Yea.. its done.. I'm finally recieve the sacrament of confirmation yesterday evening. It was an event not to miss for me. I was really nervous at first. Who would be? well the whole ceremony took place and the Bishop was there to bless us confirmers.

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Yea.. i was in perfect white sleeves and my White Lee's was just making me look fine.. Oh yea.. To top it all off, me and my orange tie did the thing..

Oh yea, when the Bishop did the annoting of the oil. He called me SIMON????

Remon? Simon?? well that just proves that the Bishop had bad vision. He didn't really see my nametag! haihz!! Bad bad eye sight! Opps.. ahh.. Sorry Sir.. Father..

Well, the ceremony ended and well it was the last time that the sunday school students actually needed to be together. It was the last time, so it was pretty emotional and stuff like that.

We still can't forget our duties as Christians from now on..

We have to get rid of the old and in with the new..

I just felt so relieved and now its like getting a second chance in life to do something right.

What a time to get it and as a faithful servant to the Lord i'm gonna do only whats right, In pleasing others, loving thy neighbour, I'm gonna treat everyone as an equal. Back to the old philosophy.. One blood, One life..

Well, I wanna do only whats right and nothing else. It seems that now is the time to be aware of the wrong doings thats coming my way.

Like a rejuvinated person, i'm prepared to accept what is about to come.

Redemption is done, Forgiveness is the key and of all Salvation is near..

Spam or the Real Deal?

recently there has been a wide rumour that theres been black magic being used in our modern day technology devise a.k.a. handphone.

Its like if someone calls you and the number has
- extra digits
- red fonts
- a bracket (4)

Its a curse message i guess.

What happened according to a few experts surrounding me (my classmates) was that there was this indo guy who bought a spirit from a bomoh. But in order to keep the spirit, the owner has to take good care of it and by doing that, the spirit will serve the master nicely. But it seemed that the owner was careless and didn't care bout the spirit and now the spirit is not obeying the owners request/demands. The only way for the owner to get back his spirit is by killing many people.

Somehow this smart ass got to the phone connection and started killing people from there..

I really don't think that this crap is real.. But it has somehow effected a few people and i don't think i wanna play a fool in this situation. My ex-senior was one of the victims and i praise the Lord that she didn't listen to it fully instead she off it after a few seconds listening to it. Her hearing became bad after that incident and she became sick. She kinda cheated death when this happened. God must really had loved her so much. I only wish that i could see her and talk to her. God is great.. God is good..

This thing has been making people go bizzare about their children and their own safety. I personally didn't like the fact that it made my niece so frightful until i had to comfort her so long. She didn't even go to bed that night and also by the fact it has (or better said : almost) affected one of my long lost friends. Its just something stupid. Killing hundreds over one stupid thing.

Oh God you do know best, and I plead that you give this person the punishment You thing he deserves.

Modern day spirit, they have no time to come scare you face to face. They prefer to use technology these days. Haihzz...

Lets just hope and pray that this contreveSIAL will end soon.

Another turning point..

Well it was time to post another blog since its been like weeks since i did, Well basically life has just mean something else to me..


I've been lazing in the present and haven't thought anything about my future.. Till me and her had a small "arguing" going on.. She talked about the future and suddenly i thought about it..


It took me minutes to realise


what was upon me..
what is gonna happen to me..
what are the things i have to sacrifice..
what are the responsiblilities thats coming for me..


In one whole second.. my dreams just went down the drain..
My life wasn't meant to be for myself, i had a whole family with me. You see, i don't come from a noble or wealthy family. I would call it "an average, good-to-do family". My dad earns about 2-3K in a month and my Mom earns about the same amount as well, to support 3 children. Living in Malaysia, you could consider that as "an okay okay" situation. I don't intend to live more than my expectation, i only do with what i have. Once in a while i do take my time out for leisure with friends, kinda have the fun that my parents thing i deserve.


See, i don't fit in a catagory that says Go chase your dreams.. Im more in the "you still have to work and support your family" situation.. See.. I have a sick dad and about 5 years from now, He.. well.. i don't know what could happen.. Its just sad to even thing about it.. I would have to instantly be supporting the family after then..

So its like I can't be given the opportunity to try to do what i want to do and i don't mind taking care of my family. The mean everything to me and im gonna be the one to take care of them. I don't have to rely on my sister or brother to take care of them. I could do it on my own.

The thing is, thinking about this.. i don't even know what i'm gonna do with myself.. whats gonna happen to me.. and being in the science stream with the hospitality course in mind just makes things worst. I don't want to waste my time doing nothing.. but theres nothing left for me to do. I mean even if i do study hard and get results, i'm still gonna end up looking after my family. Not that its a bad thing.

And being more attentive with my family and my future role in supporting my family, I don't even think i have time to be around my friends, no time to leisure (probably once or twice i would), and no time to spend with my love one. I'll be more focus on my family instead of the rest. I have to put a stop into everything that is if unless my girlfriend has no problems with the situation i'm going through. But i doubt that any girls would actually have no problems. Surely they want a guy who's always there to make them feel like there is no one else but them. I don't think there is.. But if there was.. wah.. her boyfriend is the luckiest guy on earth..

Back to the story, Even if i was commited to my love, it just can't work out between us.. lets just say that our relationship was a mistake. We can't deny the fact that both our believing and teachings are against each other as well as our status. I would have fully commited myself to the presence of Christ the Lord after my confirmation takes place and definitly you won't convert yourself or even been allowed to do so. Malaysia is that way. I don't want to go into a religious topic.

Girl you must understand this one thing. Love is not a nightmare. Its really beautiful and pure. Its just that, you love the wrong person. Its just wrong for the both of us to live a lie and carry on with our lives that way. We had to put a stop to it, and i guess that the faster we stopped it would be better for the both of us. Love is never a heartache, it is beautiful. I don't want you to place love in a wrong category. Remember that love is everything you'll ever dream of having. Life without love is not is just incomplete.

Another thing you should know is that I only said that our relationship was a mistake. You should bear in mind that i have never ever regretted the times that i was with you. Everything that we did together was true. You're just the best I ever had. Although destiny has not allowed us to be together, I don't think that i'll ever fall in love with a girl like you. You always seem to be perfect to me. You'll always be in my heart and as how much as i have to let you go, i'll always cherish the love we had.

I don't want you back and you don't need me back okay, You're just the best i ever had.
As how much as i can try, i don't think that i could get you off of my mind.
But Someday i believe that you would completely forget who i was in your life, and i will pray for that day to come.

I'm sorry for not being the special one in your life..
I really wish i could be..
I just want to but i can't..
Its our faith..
and we gotta accept that fact..

Maybe in the afterlife, we could be together and then we could love each other. Nothing can stop us then.. ^^

At least now i have a reason to die for..