The End of the Beginning..

Sometimes I wonder why i was even brought up to this world..

I only cause heartache and pain to everyone around me..
Most of them to the people who are really close to me..

A misunderstanding between me and her has caused us our relationship..
I didn't actually know what was going on.. the next thing i know.. I was to blame for something.. i don't mind getting blamed you see.. but.. its like i caused an end to the relationship with her.. Basically i didn't know what was going on.. we were joking.. and it turned to something else..

Well.. that night was the last time i spoke to her..

Of only she could come on for a moment.. I want her to know what the situation was..

hmmm..

Come to think of it..
I shouldn't even go after her after all..
I think its best for both of us to seperate anyways..
All I've caused is agony and pain to others..
Besides..
She loves me but she doesn't know who I am..
She should know.. She's someone I don't deserve to have.. She has much much better guys compared to a so called "jerk" like me..
She should know I'm not even qualified to be called a boyfriend.. especially hers..

Maybe its best if I just forget about this love bytes.. all it does it hurt people in the end.. I couldn't even do a thing right..

I'm sorry to you..

Unexpected Twist

Well, Its been a while since i last blogged.. I haven't been really active in MySpace lately.. Not because i was bored of it of coz.. Maybe its just the situation..

As Always.. Each blog means a lot for me.. But in this blog.. i don't really know what i feel..

Days gone by so quickly.. Just a blink of an eye an I'm already at the end of my form 4.. Life could be so unpredictable sometimes.. just when everything seems down, you have no where to go, going through a hard time with life, no one to speak to, All the bad things that you could imagine actually happens and all of the sudden..

Another unexpected twist happens.. Someone tells you that they actually loves you.. You've known this person basically as a friend and its just hard to even think for a second when they actually tell you that they have feelings for you..

I was lost.. Didn't even know what should i do next..

I started asking myself questions.. Why me? Why not someone else? I mean.. I'm not the smart one.. nor the good looking one.. im just a normal average person.. Whats so special in me that she actually likes me for it.. I mean.. its the first time a girl actually really have feelings for me.. I couldn't understand why she did that.. It didn't make sense..

I didn't wanted to make this person felt hurt or anything.. Yes.. I do like this person.. but it makes no sense that she likes me.. I mean, it happened so suddenly..

The question that i ask is.. Why Me?
If only I knew..