Happy New Year

Time passes by so fast when you're having fun.. Very true.. In a blink of an eye and its already the last year of your schooling career, the last day of your job and the last time you'll be actually blogging for the year.

Yes people, this will be my very very last blog of the year, cause I'm quitting friendsters, myspaces, msn's, yahoo's, and all sorts of online network.. I'm probably taking the biggest risk in my life by doing this as i may not come in touch with a long lost friend who told me not to change my email add no matter what as well as losing contact with my working colleagues,

I'm really gonna miss you guys, Especially, Alisha, Timothy, Arjay and Boy.. You guys are always the best of people that i ever hang out with, although we all come from different backgrounds and lifestyles but we make friends smile every time just by looking at them. Alisha, thanks for all the help that you were in my working career.. Probably the bestest colleague a 16-Year-old could ever had.. To Arjay Marcello Mayor, he is a great person.. not because he gives me a chance to be a bartender and learn new sorta stuffs.. but also due to the fact that he actually knows how to have fun and not take many many things too seriously. Timmo who i didn't really thought i would get along with at first seems to be the best partner in crime that i ever had.. Thanks a lot for teaching as well as taking me all the way dude.. Without you.. theres no fun at all man! Boy Boy Boy.. Dude.. You should know man.. I know at times you might not show.. but i understand the fact that you hate goodbyes.. It hurts deep inside for you.. and I'm sorry.

I saw it in your face from outside the screen at your reaction when you knew i ran out after you realizing it was my last day. I'm sorry that i left without informing all of you. You should know it was based on my experience that you would all "Basuh" me.. And it wasn't a time i want to get "basuh'ed".. You know something guys, i really wished that i didn't had to go.. After all the fun that I've been through with you guys.. I wish that I wouldn't be stopping and going back to school. And the song that played just as i was going to go out..

"All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go..
I'm standing here outside your door..
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye..
But the dawn is breaking, it's early morn.
The taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn..
Already I'm so lonesome I could cry.."

A real Coincidence that this song played.. i wouldn't have believed it but well.. Thank you.. As i took my last look at the Life Center building.. I kissed my hands and i tossed it up to the sky.. this i would remember for the rest of my life.. Thank you.. One of the greatest experience for a 16-year old mutt..

Probably this would be the last time for the whole year that i might actually be online.. Cause i made up my mind about new year's resolution.. One of it is not getting involved in any Online Network System. it gonna be pretty hard.. But hey, I'll prove them wrong..

I would like to thank everyone that was part of wacky blogs and networking systems as well.. Thanks for your comments, your wishes, your compliments, your presence, and everything else..
God Bless You..
Happy New Year..

Flashbacks and Recaps..

Well this is something special to everyone.. And for me.. Yes.. I do follow resolutions as a tradition..

Let me recap last year's New Year's Resolution..

TOP 5 Fastest Runners for the Cross-Country Race..
Achieve 20 Certificates this year..
Write 4 Songs..
Perform infront of a Huge Audience..
Get 5 Medals this Year..
Go Through the Whole Year without Drinking Milo..
No Coke-Cola for a Year..
Not Gonna Get Into Fist-Fights..
Have A Night OUT with Friends..
Score 30 Goals this year..

Well.. Yes.. I did.. I did everything without a fail.. I didn't fist fight a friend.. No Coke! AND THE BEST OF ALL.. A night out with friends..

Well.. This was something I dreamed of.. This is the only thing that makes me really happy.. Its not about the place or the amount of budjet you have to bring along but instead it was the presence.. It really means alot to me..

Things got better when I found all the songs that I've been searching for all my entire life.. I heard 2 great great songs.. One which i heard when i was little and dance along with it.. Long long time ago.. maybe when i was very little.. Another song was to me a great great love song.. One I wish I could sing it to her.. The feeling is great when you get something you long to have..

Well.. nothing more on recaps and flashbacks..

For the moment..

Grey Sky Morning..

Sometimes its just stupid to think about it over and over again.. You can't seem to get one thing right just because you're thinking of that..

Well.. somehow it has to change, but how? It's not easy just to say it and not meant it.. Its not that I want to show sympathy or crap like what other stupid guys do.. But I guess now i know why those stupid guys do things like this.. I do understand them now.. and they were not stupid to do those..

Sometimes I feel like a fool to believe that I was being played with or even to believe that I might actually be in love.. Funny to even think about it..

Well I guess lifes that way..

Its not your fault for having this type of feeling..
Its my fault for showing it..

But one things for sure..

You were always right..
Always Right..

Now I Want You To Save Me Again..

Ahh.. Nothing says quiet like a hot cup of coffee infront of the computer, blogging at midnight.. Yea its me again..

Well.. Last time i left out with a rejected face.. I was ever pleased to know that what happen was a huge misunderstanding.. She was a little angry over something else and kinda fired it on me.. Well its ok.. Sometimes i felt that what she said was right.. "You don't take things seriously".. She was very true when she said this.. Kinda felt hurt when i heard it.. And for a while i was speechless.. Paused and thought about it.. It was very true..

Lets leave that aside for a moment..

Coming back to the current situation..

I just don't know why is it that I can't really say the right things at the right time.. probably i don't do any good just by typing or chatting.. I do much better in real life you see.. You can't really judge a person on how he speaks through the computer/internet.. Its what he does in the real life.. I'm not saying that im one damn of a person.. But I'm saying that I'm a much better person in the real life..

Well Girl.. I don't know what to say to you.. I don't really know much about you.. Its not that I'm trying to offend you by saying this.. But its just that I don't know much about you.. I tried getting to know you better but everytime i try.. I start thinking on a wider view.. Things come back to me.. My mind speaks..

"Remon, she's too good for you"

"Dude, you were never meant for her"

"She belongs to a person with better character, background and everything else that seems perfect"

Its was like.. things that i find hard to accept are just facts.. It can't be denied.. But i don't think much about backgrounds and characteristic.. to me it all comes from the heart.. I trully believed that someone will someday find me, Love me, Care for me for who I am.. And I Yes.. You're the one..

Yes.. I wish to say things that doesn't make sense.. wish to call you names.. Wish to treat you like you are my everything.. Wish to annoy you at times you wish to be alone.. Wish to hold your hands for your comfort.. Wish to do just about anything for you.. too you..

But i don't want you to feel really really annoyed by my presence you see.. All i want to do is make you happy.. And if it means Shutting Up and not speaking.. I'm willing to do so.. for you..

I want you to know that.. just with your presence.. everything seems to be complete.. Just by being with you is enough for me.. You don't have to say anything to keep me away from boredom.. Just your presence is enough for me..

You See Girl..

I don't want to hurt you..
I don't want you to be left ashamed for what I say or what do..

I want you to know that if or not you really love me.. I'll still be here in the morning to hear what you have to say..